Never quit...Filipe's Blog

I'm on Holidays since 6th June, but still with a bit of work to do.

I am going to premiere two plays, the first one next week, the second one 26th July. Next week's play is going to be lika "made in the moment" kind of play which we can change anything at anytime.

Yesterday I had a concert from the music school I'm in. I played D. Aguado's Andante and "One" by U2. Then I sang a 3-portuguese-music medley with a boy. The Andante was NOT good - It's classical and I forgot everything, I was really nervous... I played the song the whole day and the day before, I can't believe I forgot EVERYTHING when I was there =/ (I PROMISSE I CAN PLAY IT!!   xD). On the other hand, singing and playing U2 was great (I confused myself in the middle with the lyrics, but whatever), everyone was starring at me like "wow" (my friends' statement - they did it too). The same thing happened when I sang the "3-song medley", everyone was starring at us like they didn't do with the other people.

Flashback to 18th June, at night, I couldn't sleep, I would have my first national exam of Geometry ever! The next day, there I was, prepared and wishing for a 100% correct test. It was soo good, I started trembling but after the first exercise I was confident and in the end I really did have everything correct!
What's the problem? If they start removing points for everything unnecessarily, I can get a lower not (I wanted a 20 - from 0 to 20) like a 19. Whatever, let's just wait until the results come out.
Flashforward xD

About the music's evolution... my microphone broke down and I need another one to record them! The instrumentals, however, are almost done ;D

Well, I dunno what else can I say.. I wish next time I post here I have something new to show you.. Music, video, whatever.

So, goodbye for now,

Hugs n Ties,

Filipex

15th May is far gone. 17 years old turns into much less... the time is near... the time when I will have to answer my fear-est questions, that kind of questions which answers change our life forever. Where am I going to try my work and luck?

I will have to choose which colleges to try, where to go? Where will have the opportunity of a life time? How am I going to search for people, agents, labels, companies,...? This and many other questions try to find the answer in the same way.

This last school weeks have been busy. Works to finish, things to make better so the teachers give me a better grade, evaluation tests and the national exam I have to do 20th June. In spite of that, I still dedicate a part of the day to the things I like the most: music and acting.

Yesterday, the guitar teacher couldn't go to the class due to flu. I should have dedicated my time to practice the musics he gave me... but what? even though I pick up the guitar everyday, I forget to practice those musics... shit

About acting scene. The next play we're going to do is: "The Mistress of the Inn" ("A Estalajadeira" (PT) ) by Carlo Goldoni. Funny play. We're going to premiere on the last week of July.

To finish this thread, I should talk about music. I am planning to play in FNAC Stores this Summer, but first I have to talk to people there and ask them the conditions. And OK, I promise I'll post another song in here, soon - I still hate the part that I have to write down everything that's on my mind and if I don't really know it, try to fit notes.... I'm still not used to it, five songs done.

I'm going to a party this Friday, I think it's going to be cool, it's a friend's bday in the disco ContagiArte - which they say it's awesome.

I don't know when am I going to write here again, maybe next week, who knows. Till then, have a great time.

Hugs n Ties,
Filipex

Hello people,

This week it was my birthday (thursday). Some of my friends even gave me presents... I had told them I didn't want any... but that's always the same thing hehe.

A sudden inspiration day came, and if I wasn't quite busy I could have finished 3 songs lol. I made one named "Goodnight" (but it's a temp name, coz it seems like it is a very romantic song, which is not, it's about unfair judgement), wrote part of the lyrics of another called "Flower Sprouts" and was almost continuing "I can" (another temp name lol)

But whatever.... I watched Lars Von Trier's Dancer in the Dark, with Bjork this wednesday. Wow, what a film... but I can't watch it again or I can jump off of the sofa and grab the hypocritical motherthing! And I received as a bday gift the Rent's DVD!! Happy haha

Well.. I'm not going to take long as I am sleepy... so, I just have to say goodbye

Nice to update here,

Ties n Hugs,
Filipex

Last week I trained week with the CSG Orchestra for the School Festival. And there we were, Friday night, with stomachache haha

There were beautiful voices there. I was the 7th to sing, and then the last one with the orchestra.
It was amazing! First, I sang my own songs and I had my friends singing with me and shouting my name. It was really wonderful. And then in the end, the real show!
The problem was (and has been for ages!) the microphones...
In the end I didn't win anything, but it was a beautiful experience. People say if they were the juri they would put me in the first places. And one friend of mine who was a juri said I was in third with other 2, but sometimes I didn't have the microphone close enough to my mouth, so they didn't give me the award... anyway, it's not my fault that the micro was a shit xD , anyway....   
About the orchestra, I don't get it, it should have won! It was original, unique, never done before, and they say that we didn't win BECAUSE they didn't hear the voices that much! W.T.F. , ok ok!
I just don't know why I was so calm at the end... but, you know, losing... it's a part of life! We have to be concious that we can't always win. And I won something that night - the assurance that people liked me, the way I sing and my musics.

Talking about some other things now. I didn't have my computer this weak so the technician could update it with a new video card and a 250GB Hard-Disc. I'm installing the programs again and moving what I have in the other disc to this one. Hard work... just because I need it!

Now.. thursday I have Math's exam, and I need to study, so, to go on with this transference and study I think I should stop writing... xD   ... it's starting to be a diary (or weekly, hm...) to disburden! haha

Well, ok then... bye! (I'm great at saying goodbye.. quick and effective)

Hugs n Ties,
Filipex 

This week was... busy again lol

No, I didn't finish reading the book yet... that's: BAD

I made the medley for the music festival, but later this week I cutted it to leave my songs only, and then I sing "Slipped Away" or "I'm With You" (I'm going to decide monday which one).

Another thing that's tormenting me is: the tests!! I have History of the Arts' test monday and I studied all weekend for that. And tomorrow I have a family lunch... and when I get home I gotta study again... hm...

Final subject (because I don't have much to say), we've changed what the theatre club I'm in is going to play: Federico Garcia Lorca's "The House of Bernarda Alba". Although it's not made by us, it's an excelent play.

Well, this is when I have to say goodbye and "cya later" haha.

Wish you a good weekend and enjoy your life as much as you can,

Hugs and Ties,
Fliperx

As you can imagine I've been busy... I wrote down what I have to do until the end of this term:

- First, something I have to do this weekend, finish the Medley I'm going to play/sing in the school festival;

- Finish reading Eça de Queiroz's "Os Maias" . A great book, you can say it's a novel;

- Finish the music with my friend Xicassa. Next friday we're gonna record it together;

- Make a work about the book above for Portuguese portfolio;

- Make a poster for Comunication Drawing classes;

- Make the cover of a book for Comunication Drawing classes too;

- Make a typography video for Informatics Applied to Graphic Design/Multimedia classes;

- Make the background instrumental for one more music (one of the ones I made when I was younger) and record it;

- Compose one or more musics;

- Record the basis of a new balad I made back in the Eater Holidays.

That's too much for me, but I'll try. Of course, first I have to do the school ones =|

But anyway, the medley I'm going to sing is a mix between 8 musics (five of which are mine, the other 3 are Avril Lavigne's, cause those songs are important in my life): Slipped Away, What Should I Do, When It's Meant To Be, Anything But Ordinary, Go Upstairs, Misunderstandings, I'm With You, Everywhere You Go, and I pretend to play them live with piano and guitar... lets wait and see what it turns up!

I've been sick... I feel my throat a little weird, I dunno, and I cough once in a while - I'm tired of drinking warm tea, already lol. I want to sing but I can't and that's the worst part... can't wait until this shit stops.

The last thing is about clothing. I'm going to buy my summer clothes through the internet. It's cheaper and I get what I want: tantan pants, large bondage pants, awesome t-shirts, Dr. Martens,... stuff like that xD .
Wanna know my opinion about clothing and fashion? Why should stylists make clothes they think it's gonna be the next season? Why do people have to follow the rules? Why can't they be different? I like to dress like what I feel better, and I like to be in a minority group of people who don't care what other people think about them and their clothes. And real stylists are the ones who try to be original, who try to make new stuff, who try to transform everything, and I glorify them. All we can see in the global shops is like: you go to one shop and you see a style, good, then you go to the next shop and you can see the same thing! It's my opinion... and who am I to change this stuff.

Ok... I'm done for now, so... goodbye, and talk 2 u soon

Hugs n Ties,
Filipex

I don't belong here, I need to get out and try to find the way to happiness. I believe one day I'll be rewarded and get what I aspire. A lot of work and sweat which I started early and I'll have what I want... won't I? Questions tormenting us.

I live in a small town in a "supportless" country. I look at the time passing by... with me studying to get good results... and waiting for the day I'll get out of here and finally try my luck + work, in that cities of skycrapers which they say they are full of opportunities...

I know... not everyone has the luck to get that opportunities. But I'll never know if I'm one of those if I'm not there. I don't know where it'll take me, but I got to take the risk, move on.

Cross-fingers.

Hugs n Ties,

FilipeX

Why are there people who want to die? There are also people who fight for their lives: they don't want to die but they know it's gonna happen soon, maybe because of a disease... Why? Why? Why? ... they are examples. Unfair, unfair, but it's the real world.

This same world is made of war, made of nothing... "oil"? Do they need to drink oil? Oh, water! Why spend it and pollute it? Is the world moving backwards? In need to give many people house and food, instead they destroy them.

And why discriminate other people when you too have "problems"? Why don't you think about your own problems? Races or even Homosexuality are things supposed to be born with the person, they don't have any fault about it - and they don't need anyone besides them to be "concerned" about that.

You may think why am I writing this down? I feel me in the right to do it. I'm really into it. This is what I think about some subjects... it's part of me.

I love Punk way of thought, because they are much like this. Well, at least the real punks, not the ones who want to be punk to be a rebel and destroy everything. I think punks are different, they like to be out of the line of the society, and they have the peace and love and bohemia alongside with them. I like to be different from the society too, I don't do it that much, but I wouldn't mind if my mother let me buy dif stuff haha xD (talking about clothes). The problem is that the world (at least the ocidental world - I love Japanese) has the bad "tradition" to judge others, so we ain't totally free, we should all take care of ourselves.

Well, ok, I'm going to watch Rent now for the third time (excluding the times I listened to its soundtrack).

I think you got a big part of what is in my mind, I'll write more soon.

Hugs n Ties, peace,

Filipex

I know it's been a while since I've last wrote here. School makes us busy, you know.

I've been playing some songs on my guitar, some of them by ear. Most of the songs I find the notes by ear and I thank the fact that I can do that - and I do the same on the piano, which I never had lessons with anyone - but I can play the first part of "Slipped Away" by Avril Lavigne (bad, but I do it lol). Well, actually, last wednesday my good friend Nevio told me how piano chords could be played and that day I learnt something interesting haha.

This week I also entered the gym.... my mom wanted me to go so I went, It's so fuckin tiring. And this Saturday (yesterday) I had to wake up at 9:40, go to the Gym at 11:00, cut my hair at 13:00, have guitar lessons at 14:00, have lunch and then go to some land near here to act on a play... yeah, I was REALLY busy.

Friday I watched a Spanish Horror Movie called "[Rec]", which won the Fantaporto Festival. It's quite scary and of the best horror movies I've ever seen.

And today I watched one of the best musicals I know in DVD: "Rent". It's great, I loved it, so powerful, beautiful songs, so much to learn. Jonathan Larson must have congratulations.

About music, well, here I am trying to improve since the beginning. I'm gonna take part of my school's music festival with two musics - I'll update you about that later.

Well, I gotta go to dinner now.

Hugs n' Ties,
Filipe

I'm in a break for lunch and I need to write fast

School's back, the 3rd term is there, and I need to apply myself to have good grades. However I'm going to spend time composing and writing. I really want to spend time writing new stuff and giving wings to my imagination.

While I do that I need to finish that song with my friend Xicassa and then, I think, I'm going to record the instrumental part for a song called "Coz I Wanna". It's a very aggressive song, very revolting.

Well, I got to go. Talk to you later to update this.

Hugs n Ties

FilipeX